let it out

No matter what your feeling, let your emotions be heard. Just let it all out... scream it to the world. It doesn't matter who listens, or even if anyone cares, because it's what you're feeling, and no one can change who you are. Stay true to your self, and just do what you need to do. If you don't let it out, then things get that much more difficult to sort out, to come to terms with. If you can't be honest with yourself, then who can you be honest with? Yea life is complicated and confusing, but we all have our moment.

Confusion of the heart and mind

Have you ever trusted someone completely, and thought you knew well, only to have them change, turn into someone else entirely, and treat your heart like a punching bag? You take blow after blow, but you stay, because you still kind of love that person. But eventually you turn away, figuring you've lost that person forever, and to simply stop trying to find what no longer is there. But after you've built those walls, to shield your heart from the pain, you catch a glimpse of the person you use to know, love and trust. Your heart want to open right back up again, to believe that that person is back and will stay, that they'll never hurt you again. But at the same time, your mind is telling you to stop, to stay walk away and not look back. Because you just know it will happen again. That you'll get your hopes up, only to have your heart mangled once again. But at the same time, you know you need to trust people, to not live a life alone, of fear and caution. But what do you listen to, what do you do? Which way do you go? Its very confusing...

we all screw things up sometimes

Humans make mistakes. No one is perfect, and its what makes people unique. When people mess up, they not only effect themselves, but also the ones around them. But mistakes are made, however much we may try to prevent them. And I have made quite a lot of mistakes myself, some more serious then others. By making these mistakes I have hurt my friends, the people who support me and keep me alive. I hate seeing them hurt, especially when I know its because of something I have done. I don't always think things through, and I have done things I'm not proud of. I can only hope that people will understand that I'm truly sorry for what I have done, and will one day forgive me, because without my friends, I'm lost. Though I wish I didn't make mistakes at all, no one is perfect, no matter how much we may dream of being. To those I have hurt I'm sorry, and please forgive me, because I need my friends more than ever. And thanks for being there for me so far... You have made all the difference.

think

When you hear of some one cutting themselves, attempting suicide, or hurting themselves out of frustration, you shake your head and think that they are weak, to emotional, or messed up in some way. But what people don't think about is why they are doing this... not the emotions driving them, the fear, the hate, the self-loathing. No, what people don't think about is what force caused them to this point. Chances are they didn't do it to themselves. Someone else was there, fueling their insecurities, their disappointments in life. But so many people have been pushed to far... so there is that many people willing to push other. But why? What is the point of making others feel bad? To make them feel better about themselves? To feel superior as the other person buckles under the weight of their depression? It's sick. To find securities in the lack of someone elses'.

To those who are like this, do the world a favor... be nice. Compliment some one instead of tearing them apart. It won't kill you, I promise. You might even get a friend or two (Gasp!). To those who are effected by people like this, be strong. Hold your head high and don't let it get to you. You are strong, and independent. You are what you make yourself out to be, not what other people say you are. Smile and enjoy life, and seek out those who make you happy.
By writing this I probably won't change the world. I may not change many people at all. But if anyone person is effected in the slightest of ways, then it makes it all worth it. To make this world strong, one person at a time. Stand up for the people, and their lives.

Stand up and live

Growing up, people will tear u down, make you out to be a fool and stab you in the back. Friends will betray you, dates will crush you, and some people will make you feel as if you're worthless. When you come across some one who makes you feel bad all the time, like a gray cloud is following you wherever you go, take a step back. Instead of trying to be who they want you to be, and who everyone seems to think who you should be, be your self. Never be afraid to do what you think is right, take a chance, and enjoy life. Don't hold back, and speak your mind. Life is short, so live it.

hilarious pictures

"You make something idiot proof, they'll make a better idiot"

Rock, paper, scissors joke

I was online and i found this post and thought it was hilarious and true in a way:
So next time you play rock, paper, scissors, what will you pick?

Monkey

I was just browsing the web whe i found the cute, hilarious picture:

Crazy recipe

Okay, this will probably sound crazy, but try it before you try telling me 'Hell no':

However many waffles you want to eat (on your own or with a friend) toasted to however much you like ( I personally like it only slightly toasted- starting to turn brown and toasty only on the outside but warm on the inside), then you take cream cheese and put a layer of that on top of the waffle. Then take your favorite flavor of jam or jelly and put it on top. Then just try it...

Hanging in Pennsylvania

Yeah, so first of all the Sunday after Christmas I drove for 11 hours (with my family minus my dad) to reach my aunt, uncle and cousins house to visit them and my other uncle and cousin. So far the highlights of my trip have been my cell gets great reception (NICE!), I have been able to relax in the hot tub (ahhhhh), play on the Wii (Fun), we went to a skating rink, however the skates I used the ankles were broken on and I kept twisting my ankle (OW!) Also we did Christmas presents and I got two things- a fifty dollar visa gift card and a forty dollar visa gift card. (VERY Cool) Plus I have had much fun hanging with my two older cousins Deanna and Sarah, as well as Sarah's boyfriend, Kevin. We play lots of BS card games, which I win most of the time. Its been fun.

Kaylyn!

Okay, so besides Alley, who I've already talked about here on my blog, there is this person who is the other half of my brain. Her name is Kaylyn. Me and her have countless inside jokes, probably more than is normal. But to be quite honest, me and her aren't normal... ;) We are constantly getting in touble for being on the phone for too long, and calling eachother at wierd hours (like 1am in the morning) We know more about eachother than two people probably should. But hey, everyone needs someone like that... Don't they?

^Kaylyn ^

Amazing Poem

Okay, so a close friend of mine wrote this poem, her name is Alley. Please leave me your comments.

Winter
by Alice Andrews
With a hat on my head
And my boots on my toes
The cold winter wind
Nips at my nose

As I lay in the snow
Making an angel
I look in the window
Mommas face, it is pain filled

I walk in the house
With my hat on my head
My momma leans down
To tell me Grandma's dead

I stand there and think
Grandma can't be gone
I saw her last week
No, it hasn't been long

I look at my momma
And say "Don't you die too"
She giggled and said
"Only old people do"

As I walk in my room
And I sit on my bed
I sit there alone
rubbing my head

To make momma happy
I think I'll be good
I'll be a good girl
Just Like I should

I open my window
When I see my dad
I hear the wind whistle
And it sounds so sad

I run down the stairs
And I look at my dad
I said "daddy be careful
cause momma is sad"

I looked at my dad
He said "I already know"
He stands there and asks
"Did you play in the snow?"

I stand there and say
"Yeah I played in the snow"
"Now if you'll excuse me,
I've got somewhere to go"

So as I walk outside
And I see what I made
I kneel in the angel
And began to pray

I looked at the sky
As the wind slapped my face
I sit there and think
She's in a better place

My mom calls me in
She says we'll be okay
She says not to worry
We'll be together some day

She tucks me in bed
And says Santa will come
She say go to sleep
Tomorrow will be fun

When I wake in the morning
And I walk down the stairs
I look out the window
My angel is still there

I look at momma
And say "Can we go outside?"
She smiles and said
"Then we'll go for a ride"

So I grab my camera
And I run out the door
I stand there and think
I've seen that before

In the middle of the angel
was a heart made of gold
It was dirty and dingy
And it looked really old

So I picked it up
And showed my mom
She looked and she's shaking
And she started to sob

She looks and she say
"It was your grammy's"
She is still crying
And she fell to her knees

She smiled and said
Open it up
And as I did just that
She dropped her coffee cup

Inside was a note
And a picture there too
The front of the note
It said to Mary Loo

It said I love you
Try not to fear
I'm spending my Christmas
With Jesus this year

The person who wrote this is 14 and a freshman at high school with me this year. She is a very close friend of mine. She is a wonderful, bubbly person who has become very close to me. When class or life gets boring, knows how to throw an interesting twist on it.

this is Alley!!!!!

65 random facts

This post is exactly what the title implies- 65 random facts.

1) You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching television.

2) 40% of McDonald's profits come from the sales of Happy Meals.

3) Coca-Cola translated to Chinese means, "To make mouth happy".

4) The number of left-handed men is double that of left-handed women.

5) American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating 1 olive from each salad served in first-class.

6) A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.

7) Oak trees do not produce acorns until they are fifty years of age or older.

8) The king of hearts is the only king without a mustache.

9) "Go." is the shortest complete sentence in the English language. "I am." is another short one.

10) One gallon of used motor oil can ruin approximately one million gallons of fresh water!

11) The world's longest game of Monopoly lasted more than 660 hours.

12) Abraham Lincoln was the only U.S. president to hold a patent. It was for an invention to buoy boats over shallow rivers.

13) The human brain is 80% water.

14) Nearly 90% of American teens used the Internet in 2005.

15) Rats are incapable of puking.

16) Sound travels about 4 times faster in water than in air.

17) Abraham Lincoln faces to the right on a penny while all the other presidents face to the left on US coins.

18) There are over 58 million dogs in the US.

19) A lump of pure gold the size of a matchbook can be flattened into a sheet the size of a tennis court.

20) The average person has over 1,460 dreams a year.

21) Google's name is a play on the word googol, which refers to the number 1 followed by one hundred zeroes.

22) North Dakota is the only state in the US that has never had an earthquake

23) In ancient Egypt, priests plucked EVERY hair from their bodies, including their eyebrows and eyelashes.

24) 22,000 checks will be deducted from the wrong bank accounts in the next hour.

25) The word "democracy" is banned in online chat rooms in China.

26) In England, the Speaker of the House is not allowed to speak.

27) Your stomach has to produce a new layer of mucus every two weeks otherwise it will digest itself.

28) All polar bears are left handed.

29) Your odds of being killed by space debris are approximately 1 in 5 billion.

30) The life expectancy at birth in Swaziland is estimated to be only 33 years old (as of 2005)!

31) No president of the United States was an only child.

32) Fingernails grow nearly 4 times faster than toenails!

33) Sneeze travels out of your mouth at over 100 miles (161 km) an hour.

34) The reason firehouses have circular stairways is from the days when the engines were pulled by horses. The horses were stabled on the ground floor and figured out how to walk up straight staircases.

35) In 1886, sales of "Coca-Cola" averaged only 9 drinks per day.

36) It is estimated that at any one time, 0.7% of the world's population are drunk.

37) Humans blink over 10,000,000 times a year!

38) The longest one syllable word in the English language is "screeched".

39) Thirty-five percent of the people who use personal ads for dating are already married.

40) The first owner of the Marlboro Company died of lung cancer.

41) Mosquito repellents don't repel. They hide you. The spray blocks the mosquito's sensors so they don't know you're there.

42) 99% of the pumpkins sold in the US end up as jack-o-lanterns.

43) Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.

44) The only letter not appearing on the Periodic Table is the letter “J”.

45) The average person will spend 2 weeks over their lifetime waiting for the traffic light to change.

46) To escape the grip of a crocodile's jaws, push your thumbs into its eyeballs-it will let you go instantly.

47) Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.

48) The longest living cells in the body are brain cells which can live an entire lifetime.

49)Donald Duck's middle name is Fauntleroy.

50) have recommended that a toothbrush be kept at least 6 feet away from a toilet to avoid airborne particles resulting from the flush

51) The largest toy distributor in the world is McDonald's.

52) In Colombia, an individual can be fined up to $90,000 for gossiping.

53) Studies show that if a cat falls off the seventh floor of a building it has about thirty percent less chance of surviving than a cat that falls off the twentieth floor. It supposedly takes about eight floors for the cat to realize what is occurring, relax and correct itself.

54) Every second over 7,000 Coca-Cola products are consumed.

55)Jupiter, the fifth planet from the sun, is the largest planet in the solar system, twice as big as all the other planets combined.

56) Walt Disney was afraid of mice.

57) In 32 years there are about 1 billion seconds!

58) A giraffe has a 20-inch tongue.

59) An ostrich's eye is bigger that it's brain.

60) The US has about 9 billion chickens. China has more than 13 billion.

61) 2 and 5 are the only prime numbers that end in 2 or 5.

62) The average person has 100,000 hairs on his/her head. Each hair grows about 5 inches (12.7 cm) every year.

63) The average bra size today is 36C. Ten years ago it was 34B.

64) Our eyes are always the same size from birth, but our nose and ears never stop growing.

65)The microwave was invented after a researcher walked by a radar tube and a chocolate bar melted in his pocket.

Which came first, the chicken or the egg?

When some one asks you the question 'which came first, the chicken or the egg?' they mean to trip you up and ask you a question that there is no way to answer, to confuse you. But truth is, you can confuse them by saying 'egg'.
Yeah, yeah. You think there is absolutely no way to prove the answer one way or the other. And you are partially correct. If the person asked 'which came first, the chicken or the chicken egg, there would be no way to solve it. But since they do not specifically ask about a chicken egg, you say with confidence that the egg did indeed come first, do to the proof that eggs were around way before any chicken. I mean seriously, did you find any chicken fossils from the dinosaur era? But there are reports of eggs from back then. Think about it and, after your head overcomes the cloud of confusion, what I'm saying would actually make sense.